all mixed up

i say good day to you Pismo.

I'm sitting here 2 hours before my last day. 2 hours 12 minutes and 38 seconds..... i couldn't sleep. I'm excited but I'm not sure why? is it the sense of completion? or the pride in all the stuff i learned? am i just happy to go see my people in d-town? i feel on top of the world. unstoppable if you will.

I'll miss Cali. i love the weather, the people, the work, and i guess every thing.

I wish PCPA was a little more organized right now. I'd love to stay and learn more. i just don't feel that this that right place for me now.

I'm leaving with this mind frame that as long as some one is willing to teach me then i can learn it. i hope i can stay in this mind frame. I want to become some one and make a name for myself.

My mind is all over the place today. yet i still feel calmed. like every thing will be OK.

I feel that i have a new discipline about my self. i think I'm growing up. and I'm excited.

"When a man feels throbbing within him the power to do what he undertakes as well as it can possibly be done, this is happiness, this is success." Orison Swett Marden

PCPA Slogans and quotes

"Hurry Up, and wait"

"measure it with a micrometer, pencil it with a piece of chalk, and cut that shit with a chain saw"

"If its worth doing, Its worth doing twice"

"Done is beautiful"

"you don't know me"

"Had a hard day? go see Jake's mom she will fix you up"

"I've choked bigger men then you!"

"Get me some GD work lights"

and last but not least

"best animated film of the year"
"Did you see it?"
"nope its what the T.V. told me"

oh i almost forgot this one

"WOULD YOU STOP THAT? WOULD YOU STOP THAT!!"
"yea"
"I'M TRYING TO EAT"

"you dont know me"

fish and jakes mom

Seems to the name i go buy now days. FISH that is. it all started because i was the second Chris to come in to the shop. so they had to give me a nick name. well i got lucky. from what i hear it was going to be Hooker. then they met me i guess and decided i wasn't that bad. so i was the new fish. i catch a Chris every now and then and it throws me off. The favorite pass time in the scene shop is talking of our memories of Jake's mom. that started because we call the shop blower nozzle "Jake's mom" because she blows everything. and the elec. shop pokes fun at Matt's mom. enough said. i hope she doesn't read this. i did show her my website when i was dropping off the child support. oh crap i had one of those out loud moments. sorry Jake..... and Jake's mom. it could be worse we could call her scrap rack.

"To be alive is to be powerful. Every time we think, feel, or act, we exert power and influence the world." ~ Gloria D. Karpinski

I ran across this quote while doing some late morning Google fishing. last night was the last Bonn fire. kind of sad. a lot of new friends are leaving. there great people and have changed me for the better. I'm feeling that right here, right now, is the most important time of my life. I've started making decisions, I've started changing my life, I've started living it. last night is the first time in my life I've ever really been 100% myself for a length of time. i did not think. i just did. and i just said. and i just lived. there was no fear.

That's how i want to live. free of the fear of failure. i feel like I'm actually going to make it. i just hope i can keep this mood and not let people drag me down.

Well back to the Bonn fire. we had a truck full of wood. and 30 people. i feel like i could hang out with any one of them. there great people. Joel went swimming in his under wear in the ocean. it was awesome. i tryed to make fire pop corn. not so awesome. We talked the night a way and before we knew it it was 430 am. and we were still going. life is good. Gigidy Gigidy

doubleCARPETCRISIShinges

Today was a hell of a day. all day long we cut this carpet into all different shapes. then we had to put together this 30 foot by 15 foot puzzle. once we get it all lined up were going to have to glue it to a huge piece of canvas. its going to suck.

on top of that i had to go deal with double swinging door hinges. if you ever have had to deal with them then you would know why i hated this. they never work out like that should. and since the school cheeped out and only got 2 instead of the recommended 3 it was not going well.

i think in the end we got it all fixed though.

"if you can find a path with no obstacles, it probably doesen't lead anywhere"

Bondo cancer and wilson

i had a great day yesterday at work. i was taught how to use bondo. you see first you have to get a good mixture down.(about ten to one) then you feel in spaces of metal that are missing. then end result after sanding is very nice. well about 30 minutes in to this job wendy comes out and says your doing that with out a face mask on? that's like breathing cancer in dust form. i was all like thanks for not telling me sooner cause now i done caught the cancer. well that sucked but after work we all went out to the beach and broke Wilson( the volley ball) we had a great set of games. though i don't think were getting much better at the game its self we still manage to have fun. and we are getting better at diving. about mid-way through the game yesterday there was this huge spike serve and this girl was lined up to hit and then she dropped her hands and took it right to the face. i felt bad because i could not control the laughter. well i guess i got to go to work. "DO OR DO NOT, THERE IS NO TRY"

the longest night

Well last night was opening night in a Santa Maria theatre for KISS ME KATE. The show started at 8:00. As you can see i ad to get all dressed up but it was fun. it was a musical that i did not really mind which is rare. it was a very funny show. it ended up finishing around 11:00. yea i was sleepy but i figure i better make this best of this whole college experience so i got in a car and headed to the after party at THE ROAD HOUSE. it was fun but not very accommodating. i think 80% of our company got wasted. you know me i don't drink so that was nice and cheap. well 1:30 rolls around so i head over to tell heather happy birthday since it was now official. i over herd a group of costumers and electrics talking up a bonfire. now this normal for the weekend on a normal weekend but i figured the party took place of it. nope. 2 a.m. me and 6 brave souls head out to the beach. laps full of scrap pine we take the 30 minute ride out to the beach. it was so fun. i really do love it out here. i ended up coming in sometime around 6 a.m. Bri can vouch for me because it was late enough that i could call her. the people here are great and I'm adjusting well.

one month a go.

i was sitting in Durham at my comfort place (ninth st) with my favorite person in the world. I was scared shitless. i knew that soon i would be moving to CA. all by myself. well the day after i graduated i got on an airplane for the first time. then after5 minutes i got back off. 3 hour delay. it messed all my flights up. when i managed to make it to Phoenix i barely caught my second plane. i made it to LA at 12 in the morning and got on my last plane to Santa Maria. a 10 seater P.O.S. i made it to SMX just in time to find my that my luggage was in some other state. they kicked me out and said call them the next day. so its 2 a.m. and I'm waiting on a taxi so that i could go to my home for the next 3 months. i pull up to a 100% mustard yellow house. when i got in my room i instantaneously loved it. well its about a month later now and I'm doing great. i got friends and places to go. every Monday we all go play beach volley ball and every Friday its strait to the Bon fire for a long warm night. the weather is amazing,