all mixed up

i say good day to you Pismo.

I'm sitting here 2 hours before my last day. 2 hours 12 minutes and 38 seconds..... i couldn't sleep. I'm excited but I'm not sure why? is it the sense of completion? or the pride in all the stuff i learned? am i just happy to go see my people in d-town? i feel on top of the world. unstoppable if you will.

I'll miss Cali. i love the weather, the people, the work, and i guess every thing.

I wish PCPA was a little more organized right now. I'd love to stay and learn more. i just don't feel that this that right place for me now.

I'm leaving with this mind frame that as long as some one is willing to teach me then i can learn it. i hope i can stay in this mind frame. I want to become some one and make a name for myself.

My mind is all over the place today. yet i still feel calmed. like every thing will be OK.

I feel that i have a new discipline about my self. i think I'm growing up. and I'm excited.

"When a man feels throbbing within him the power to do what he undertakes as well as it can possibly be done, this is happiness, this is success." Orison Swett Marden

PCPA Slogans and quotes

"Hurry Up, and wait"

"measure it with a micrometer, pencil it with a piece of chalk, and cut that shit with a chain saw"

"If its worth doing, Its worth doing twice"

"Done is beautiful"

"you don't know me"

"Had a hard day? go see Jake's mom she will fix you up"

"I've choked bigger men then you!"

"Get me some GD work lights"

and last but not least

"best animated film of the year"
"Did you see it?"
"nope its what the T.V. told me"

oh i almost forgot this one

"WOULD YOU STOP THAT? WOULD YOU STOP THAT!!"
"yea"
"I'M TRYING TO EAT"

"you dont know me"

fish and jakes mom

Seems to the name i go buy now days. FISH that is. it all started because i was the second Chris to come in to the shop. so they had to give me a nick name. well i got lucky. from what i hear it was going to be Hooker. then they met me i guess and decided i wasn't that bad. so i was the new fish. i catch a Chris every now and then and it throws me off. The favorite pass time in the scene shop is talking of our memories of Jake's mom. that started because we call the shop blower nozzle "Jake's mom" because she blows everything. and the elec. shop pokes fun at Matt's mom. enough said. i hope she doesn't read this. i did show her my website when i was dropping off the child support. oh crap i had one of those out loud moments. sorry Jake..... and Jake's mom. it could be worse we could call her scrap rack.

"To be alive is to be powerful. Every time we think, feel, or act, we exert power and influence the world." ~ Gloria D. Karpinski

I ran across this quote while doing some late morning Google fishing. last night was the last Bonn fire. kind of sad. a lot of new friends are leaving. there great people and have changed me for the better. I'm feeling that right here, right now, is the most important time of my life. I've started making decisions, I've started changing my life, I've started living it. last night is the first time in my life I've ever really been 100% myself for a length of time. i did not think. i just did. and i just said. and i just lived. there was no fear.

That's how i want to live. free of the fear of failure. i feel like I'm actually going to make it. i just hope i can keep this mood and not let people drag me down.

Well back to the Bonn fire. we had a truck full of wood. and 30 people. i feel like i could hang out with any one of them. there great people. Joel went swimming in his under wear in the ocean. it was awesome. i tryed to make fire pop corn. not so awesome. We talked the night a way and before we knew it it was 430 am. and we were still going. life is good. Gigidy Gigidy